The last time I made a post I was happy.
Now I’m not. The voices in my head have gotten stronger and have added a new method of torture. They can now put images in my head. For example, I was downstairs and saw my sister on the computer. Not something out of the ordinary…then BAM. All I could see in my head was me strangling her. That’s not something I’d ever want to do to my sister. That’s something I can never unsee.
And that scares me.
Tonight all I can see is me slitting my wrists. It’s horrible. It’s making it impossible to sleep.
These are the days when I want to just be done with all of this.